true story

to just commemorate a pact
that is where i find myself tonight
in those quiet moments between two people
who found each other
only to let each other go
i think the text goes:
life is not about finding yourself
life is about creating yourself
george bernard shaw
so in that same vein
we are not here to merely find each other
we are here to create with one another
and tonight over a phone line
voice to voice
ear to ear
we acknowledged the finding of one another
and in that same breath
recognized that we are unable to create with one another in our current standings
i don't want to fix the man who stands besides me
i simply want that man to stand
beside
me
and yes, toes dancing
and yes, scream at the moon with me
and together we will jump off the cliff and create our wings
together we will fly
meanwhile, this is a solo mission
on behalf of all the people who have contributed to the makings of this here wild muscle in the middle of my chest
this heart
it pumps and holds the rhythm of all the minutes passed and the hours to come
and especially today
right now
today i choose life
i trust life
i surrender and put this soul in it's custody
on the faith that it has my back
the paths will reveal themselves
and i will show up and with this seasoned spirit
these brave shoulders and unflinching conviction
i will receive one step at a time
i will gracefully march in to the unknown
gallantly embrace the spontaneity of this prolific and abundant journey
it is the only way i know how to live
it is reaffirmed with every memory of heather
and my grandfathers
from giant in a brooklyn apartment
to this one girl who was born without an ear
it is the shine reflected because i am surrounded by candles
it's my eyes open and my eyelashes pumping towards a backbone anchored to light
it's the pledge of emerson's pure laughter
it is in the knowing that this is not an ending
nor a beginning
that i always was and always will be
creation
change
shift
in perception
i am revelation
in every discovery of a new sun on a new day
i gotta believe that somehow i took part in electing those blue jeans for that epic sky
my suggestion mattered
this is all worthwhile
because
i. am. inevitable.
i am.
I AM ARIANNA AURORA DOLORES BASCO