a prayer

it's all getting pretty heavy tonight...
how does this work?

my life
my life is rich and full of blessings
lessons
the true shit
the love shit
i think about who i am
and all the people who fill my day
and all i can do is smile
i'm the luckiest girl in the world
in my prime of true currency-
and not because this is the height of it-
no
because this is the most open i've ever been to it
and i'm so grateful to have seen the light

guess what the rub is now... is just... well
financially
i'm over it
i want a home
and i know, i know
my home is every where i lay my head
every where my heart walks
inside you and right here inside me
and i love it, truly do
but i'm ready for a roof over my head
walls i get to decorate
a kitchen i get to cook in
sheets that smell like me
my poetry books on my shelf
slumber under a canopy
i want a place for my kids to grow up
to make love and wake up the house with song
put the house to bed with kisses
i want to build

and what a perfect time to do just that
been building for 29 years
must admit, can't complain
it's a beautiful world
it's all in the works, i know
just have to have faith

sitting on the stoop with my sister
remembering this stage in life
'this too shall pass'
we laughed about if you put all our family's combined income together
we'd probably be at poverty level
and we laughed and laughed
we laughed about the day when we look back at today
when we struggled
because someday we will all be on top of the world
it has to be this way
it's our legacy
our destiny

yeah, life is what we make it, for sure
absolutely
and we sure have made quite the lives for ourselves

it'll all pay off
times are rough
but it will all
pay
off


the question came up
would we trade in all this circus for all the money in the world
the answer followed abruptly
absolutely not


universe, bless this family

amen