blued

sat in an office chair for about 37 minutes
pondering life

so i went to an art show on friday
hanging with some old school
ended up crashing in a bed that wasn't yours
wasn't the least bit familiar
saturday i went to the magic spot
wrote down some words
went to my group graduation that night
enlightening
funny- when we were reviewing the steps
i decided to to write each lesson on one page, no matter how much space was left on the page
the whole thing was pretty emotional
got to the last lesson
turned the page and there was a ticket stub waiting for me
the last lesson: letting go
said something about
letting go of what you want will guarantee you will get what you want
... something like that
it was also september 11th
and today was the 12th
4 year anniversary of my family reuniting
amazing weekend

only thing missing was you

from your perspective
i completely understand
i get it
from mine--
i wanna call wrong train
how does it all happen
and then stop so abruptly
but my gut says hold off
hold off
another day
one more day

office chair swivel
doesn't cure the blues