woman to woman

it's funny how a phone number can be a speed dial in your head for so long
but if given enough time and some of life's best jokes
it is as foreign as a new song, a note sang wrong
what once was so strong now left to wilt and fall down
confiscated are these crowns
were you aware you were fucking royalty
did you know you tampered with my king memory

i don't know you, you have no idea who i am
and apparently he doesn't either, not anymore
he, like you, share humor from the same tongue
the same fire escape
maybe it's a rhinebeck trait
perhaps it's all that clean air upstate
turning out kids a grade better than the rest of us
careless and righteous in your entitlement
sex drive propelling wheels from florida to new york
text dives on birthdays while i was at work
it was a beginning to an end
forshadowing the next bend
of almond eyes finding comfort in other men
and then a man
making plans more than just a one night stand

and what does it matter if i forgive you or not
you do not know this heart
you do not know this life
we have no shared smiles
you borrowed his dick for awhile
you know nothing of what makes me a human
of what makes me a worthy friend
a person of worth
the girth of my soul
you haven't an inkling of my bullet holes and my battle wounds
all those days and months and years tapping to this tune
how far the bounds of my spirit reach
the universal emotion i preach
to what lives i hold dear
the one's changed by our laughter
late night canopy dreams overcoming daily fears
we inspired the epiphany with our hopes to change the world
we embraced the change as we curl into eachother taking life's jokes blow by blow
filling this house with good people we know
weeding out the foes
showing up for your self was the only toll
our mates always had a seat at our table
our palms always open and able
putting out the place settings special for our families
a place to call home, i am at ease, his worries i seized
that's how we ran our house
all of our little vows

the faces we chose, the one's that chose us
to the one's we lost along the way
and then that oneday
eachother we lost was the price we paid

the open palm turns to fist
absent he is around these hips
more importantly lack of me in his heart
and somewhere in there were your lips

were you aware you were fucking loyalty
tampering with my life's amenity
but now i will take responsibility for my hand in it all
bless it and give it permission to fall

no we have no shared smiles
just shared the same dick for awhile
yeah the speed dial changes
you and i reside in different ranges