withdrawl

and this is how we are ending 2005, jumping into 2006
i can see it now
i get it
we're all making room for the unknown
abandoning what was
abandoning comfortable
watching death occur
allowing things to just be
even though i hate it at times
even though i may have said it
and i'm now gonna have to eat it

so alone together
us friends gather
taking new steps
painting new pictures
unsure of what it all means
sitting at this dinner table
a meal is abrewing in the kitchen
and we're scared out of our panties
it's not the usual this time
and i don't know how i'm gonna take it
you might throw it up
he might be allergic
she might get food poisoning
or it might be alright
might even enjoy it

another revolution around the sun
without her this time
without the security of last year
security of memories that made me
so today
right... right...
all these days put together make a month
make a year
make a life
everyday is the same
but not at all
crazy how that works

it's like watching a child grow everyday
and oneday looking at a picture
how different they look
and you didn't even notice

i'm trying to be strong
listening to these songs
making the intangible touchable, readable

so we sit around talking boody calls and little black books
needing someone to smash, fuck and run
fuck and love
and i say
i just want someone to live in the now with
right now

the food is up and coming out soon
let me know what you think
i'll let you know how mine is