hope it's loaded

not even close to done in this marathon of marathons
i'm leaping through pain like a phoenix rising from the ashes of burnt dreams
washed up hopes somewhat recognizable
somewhere back when
i've seen it before, i know it
this seashell, this ocean
this scene
yeah
yes
i remember love asshole
i lived it every fucking 3 minutes
every second minute was regret
every minute was faith
now the minutes are getting all crazy on me
my ratio is all fucked
my stomach is all flipped
are you serious right now?
oh man!
man oh man oh man
this is one of those life changing moments, ain't it?
and it's not the grand finale, is it?
shhhhiiiiiiiiiiiit
what a day
what a life
i'm in a band now brother
wrote a piece here brother
i'm a blonde now brother
still have one ear brother
i found something called feelings brother
i've seen death now brother
seen a little bit of the world brother
drove a penske truck cross country brother
i lost some teeth brother
busted my knee in brooklyn brother
almost drowned in canada brother
climbed mount fuji brother
i got mugged in brazil brother
i got mugged on santa monica blvd brother
by you brother
and now brother
are you trying to give back what you so suddenly stole?
just shoot already
just fucking shoot