confront

my name is arianna aurora dolores basco
my birthday is march 31, 1981
i have four older brothers
derek brandon, darion drake
dante roman, dionysio jose damaso
dion for short
they are not proud to be my brothers
i don't think
i'm coming to terms with that
my mother's name is aida
my father is darius, often referred to as day-o
my ma's maiden name is abasta
i don't know many things
but i got concepts dripping from my fingertips
i wear my heart on my lips
and i'm not ashamed of that
i am a good person
i love dogs
when i get cold i itch
i can't sneeze properly
i call them snoughs
i get bitchy when i'm really hungry
or my feet hurt
or i'm tired
or it's hot
i'm brown
i'm filipino
i see my future in my grandpa's eyes
i hug my grandma like i did when i was four
i say a prayer everytime i see an ambulance
an accident
a police car with their sirens on
i throw things in the trash
i don't like to smoke in front of my nephew
i'm scared to invest in myself
i have one ear
that always sucked
i'm chubby
my face is not symmetrical
my pinky toe nail doesn't grow straight
my jaw clicks
i'm silly at times
i'm angry at times
i like a good laugh
i've been known to hurt people
real bad
i've been known to love people
thoroughly
when i die i hope it inspires people to live a better life
if i had all the money in the world
i would pay off all my family's debt
then i would adopt children
bear my own
raise them with everything i got
i would have a barbeque everyday of the week
open my doors so every soul knew they had a home in my house
and i do mean every soul
i do mean everyday
when i grow old i want to sing songs to my children's children's children
i wish i didn't have to sleep
i wish i was more than just me
i love food
i love that part in the conversation where an epiphany is happening
i love the part where you break down and cry because you have nothing
you are spent
and then the next day where you embrace your blessings
i enjoy a taco from this spot around the corner from my house
i find comfort in a baby crying and my ma humming a tune to them at 6 am
or at 5:30 am her vacuuming
my pops in the back yard practicing his golf swing
me and him talking shit about our pool game
i talk with my whole body sometimes because my voice is not enough
i love with my whole being alot of the times because it's the only way i know
i apologize when i'm wrong
i never say i told you so
i live life for a living
i seek truth for a profession
try to be the best person i can be everyday
i hit my friend's in the face, never in the back
i always forgive
i always remember
i give up too easily on me
i never give up on you
i hate being late
i hate loud motorcycles
i love to travel
i mean i appreciate it
i document it
i like chocolate pudding
ice cream floats
a good steak
when i go to a restaurant i order my meal based on the side dishes
my eyes skim the page for potatoes
i believe time is the greatest gift
try to give mine wisely
it dissapoints me when i see the coward slip out
it dissapoints me when the easy way out is always the way
i believe in feelings
communication
songs
universal truth
butterflies
life
this one

there

in a nut shell. me.