battery life

this is what's real
i got 48% battery on my computer
and it feels about 48 degrees in my room right now
what's real is that i'm so filled with light that this cold don't even bother me
this shine is telling me i'm good, i can weather this low temperature
what's real are miracles
and miracles are simply a change in perception
what's real is that i choose love
i choose to live in love
like forgiveness is to embrace another person for all that they are today
and not who we think they should be or where we think they could be
but to grant another person their beingness
and as i want to be comfortable in my own skin
is how i must allow other's to be comfortable in their skin
so when i choose to live in love
there is no reciprocation, expectation
it is faith
that i am love
i am light
and by fully being present in that
the right people will show up
and they do
every time
i got 46% battery and i ain't done yet
that's real
sometimes things don't turn out how we think it should
true story
or perhaps it really turned out unexpectedly well
its just not yet apparent what for
see cause i gotta believe every yes is on time
as every no is right on time too

what's real is that i am in love
what's real is that homeless lady on 4th st high on god knows what
what's real is her saying no one loves me
what's real is him saying you know that's not true
what's real is him saying i love you
what's real is when he opened his arms and she wept as she leaned in to the cradle
what's real is that they were both changed

what's real is word swapping under this los angeles night sky
sharing space on concrete while tongue tapping over expired parking meters
what's real is 44% battery life
and letting go of yesterdays strife
yeah, really realizing those chips on my shoulder are just chips
and right now, today, if i want to
i really can make those chips any flavor i want
bbq, sour cream and onion, jalepeno
hell- make it a motherfucking sampler platter of chips
reach over, remove them from my shoulder, and eat them
and magically, miraculously, they seize to exist
shift in perception
so simple

so shut the fuck up ego conscience
and speak up louder and shine brighter soul conscience
carry me safely and valiantly into my tomorrow
twinkle twinkle sparkle sparkle
i will
i am
i do
not for me
but for everyone who believes me
that's what's real

3:22 am 1.11.11 42%