this fisherman's rant

they say give a man a fish and he eats for a day
teach a man to fish and he eats for a lifetime

i have no merit in which to teach nor preach
the only thing in which i seek is to become a better version of me
the best, actually, that i could possibly be


that being said, i would like to apologize
for my insinuation



earlier today i recited 'soil from his fingertips' [www.youtube.com/ladybasco]
to a dear friend of mine
his response was very unusual

the first thing he said was: you wrote a poem about yourself

the second thing he said was: i feel there is a disconnect in it
and not in the words but in the context of them
its as if in the repetition of the 'next boyfriend' mantra you are actually stepping away from the fishing pole and giving away fish almost like you're avoiding confronting the acknowledgement of your own epic process of casting and reeling
because if you were to truly understand your piece then you would know
that you're really searching for yourself
and not just in a love partner
but in every relationship
and, further, if you were to truly be honest with yourself

you already have that

so why then, arianna, would you put on the veneer of this blueprint of a 'next boyfriend'
thus disconnecting yourself from your own ability to fish
why position yourself in such a way that you are 'seeking'
step back and realize that you are truly fishing
you are, as you already know, a fisherman




this is a thank you for holding me accountable to my own personal growth as an artist, a student, and a human.

i am a woman
i will find you in those moments of disparity
and see a light coming out of your ass anyway
i understand
that the heart, sometimes, it weeps
that sometimes the world gets a little too heavy for one soul to keep
i write songs
trapping words in melodies
rearranging letters forcing your lung to breathe
i find truth in your tongue and i water it
create soil from my fingertips
i love life
and you in it
right beside me holding up my back bone
holding up my own
i know a thing or two about sweet nothings
building upon natural blessings
i will hold you like the night holds a shadow
the sidewalk nurtures a crack
i will kiss you like the bush belongs to the vine
fitting so perfectly like your favorite cardigan
and i'll know the right thing to say when it gets hard again
when you're finding it oh so hard to start again
i'll just reflect your smile- that's where it all begins
i am forever days
ain't feeling so great days
when you can't go on i'll be there reminding you where your knees are days
i will dance
groove with you, spit talking, booty shaking, melody rocking
let me get into your pants
but not disrespectful like
in fact
exactly the opposite
i respect you so much like
more than words like
so i gotta show you with my entire body like
i am a poem
i'll swim around in your denim
i like things like coffee, and hikes
i love things like sitting in a room with unfamiliar faces
i ponder things like, where are we from, where are we going
i'll make you laugh outrageous
i am brave
wear my heart on his lips
tattoo you on my hips
i love food and culture
hopes and dreams
not yet a baller
but i don't pay much attention to things you can buy anyway
i just try
to be the best person i can be
see a little light from inside
i love kids
someday our kids
innately knowing the difference between being a mother and a mom
my mouth will melt away all the noise
i will bring you home
you and me on our throne
i be your queen and you my king
i am the difference between
material things versus these life strings
cause i already lived a life
then i found you
and you and i
well we just are
glowing like the brightest night stars
and in the day we bring out the sun
with those mirrors in the middle of our chest
outshining that damn ego consciousness finally putting it to rest
i am courageous
even when i sometimes cry
stumbling upon the simple beauties of life
gets me every time
the stuff that makes pride

i stand
and feel
i am not ashamed
to change
to evolve
to be real
i am free
this is truth
and through my freedom
i choose you