when i couldn't find you i saved your words

Tuesday, May 16, 2006 8:05 PM - Mench. Repaying vanity with acts of kindness, my hollow is hollow. Wrong time. Right place. Giving and taking everything pushes me off balance. Burning from both ends, the tallow melts away leaving a flimsy piece of string. Two flames dangerously close. I hate feeling like this. Getting away with more than I deserve. And not. Two people. Both people. Living Gemini. This is retarded. 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

Friday, February 24, 2006 3:40 AM - It's been a long road to get back here..... NewYork, NY Kalamazoo, MI Boston, MA Cincinnati, OH Chapel Hill, NC Greensboro, NC Erie, PA Hershey, PA Wilkes Barre, PA State College, PA Toledo, OH Columbus, OH Wilmington, DE Detroit MI, Fort Wayne, IN St. Louis, MO Green Bay, WI Rapid City, SD Indianapolis, IN Philadelphia, PA Washington, DC Syracuse, NY Buffalo, NY Rochester, NY Louisville,KY Atlanta, GA Augusta, GA Greenville, SC Stamford, CT New Orleans, LA Dallas, TX Phoenix, AZ Los Angeles, CA Mexico City, Mexico Denver, CO New York, NY Boston, MA JAPAN Tulsa, OK St. Louis, MO Dayton, OH Thousand Oaks, CA Pasadena, CA Salt Lake City, UT Reno, NV Tacoma, WA Witchita, KS Houston, TX Waterbury, CN Galveston, TX Omaha, NE Providence, RI Columbus, OH Ft. Lauderdale, FL San Francisco, CA Tampa, FL St. Paul, MN Baltimore, MD Grand Forks, ND Wilmington, DE Louisville, KY Amarillo, TX Lubbock, TX Austin, TX Corpus Christi, TX McAllen, TX Springfield, MO Rapid City, SD Evansville, IN Savannah, GA Sarasota, FL Appleton, WI Philadelphia, PA Wheeling, WV Portland, ME Lancaster, PA Stamford, CT Columbia, MO Hamilton, ONT Detroit, MI Orlando, FL Indianapolis, IN Raleigh, NC Edmonton, ALB 3 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

Wednesday, January 25, 2006 2:15 PM - Detroit. Detroit. Detroit. Detroit. Two cities, neither of which I see. Where did you go? That afternoon when everyone packed up and left your streets deserted. Your windows hollow. Heatless steam rising from dried up sewers. Your survivors fill my seats. Their applause bounces tinny off the peeling walls of a faded theater. When the lights come up what do they call home? Detroit, where are you? 2 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

12:54 AM - No more cigarettes. I quit twenty three days ago and was just fine up until last Wednesday, now it's really hard. What is it about cold depressing towns like Hamilton, Ontario and Detroit, MI that make me want to smoke? Discuss. Currently watching : The Philadelphia Story Release date: By 02 May, 2000 3 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

Saturday, November 05, 2005 4:46 AM - Why am I still up? there's nothing waiting for me in dreams eyes kept open in the hopes of a message an image a call a voice to tell me i'm hallucinating there's nothing wrong that i don't actually feel this way but eyes keep returning to a circle of chapped skin where a ring used to be i want to cover it up. pretend. solace comes in song comfort in quarter time consolation in the bitterness of fools stuck in time keeping time everyone here has issues someone they lost along the way travelling together lonely all pass through the night hours alone in our cells finding sleep at sunrise finding peace 'till housekeeping knocks a reminder you are far far from home two more minutes it'll be okay two more minutes someone will wake up two more minutes someone will call two more minutes another song to remind you what's gone verse it's over verse let go verse can't chorus this hurts just stay with me for the night just so i can sleep just so i can sleep just so i can sleep 0 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

Friday, November 04, 2005 3:43 AM - A Pirates Life For Me forty winks since last I've seen home el mirage she sails eighty mph. ladies of the evening sing a sirens' song in every saloon whiskey and beer dull the shine of the lone star dust collecting on my boots dig my heels into the sides of any thing I ride just want to feel some life between my legs pound the decks with a broom soot and smoke fill my lungs skin on my hands getting thicker bring me to port, there's a storm sea came up clouds rolled over ships been flipped capsized and drowning fuck you come any closer and I'll kill you water in my lungs feels just fine save yourself I'll sink with the boat.... ...it's just another journey mark the days on my arms a calendar in skin serving out my sentence at sea we waltz and sway stomp and sing the tide's gonna take me away away... "Sure I'll see shore. One of these days. And when I return, She'll have married a king Knowing that rowing, Will keep me on course. Sails full of wind, Could've carried the thing. No worry. No hurry, She needs you no more And getting there faster, Won't lessen the sting." rhymes and rhythm to keep from the life I'm missing the girl I'm missing the love I'm losing "Let my tears salt your glass Toast my pain, as you pass. I'll take my regrets To-go. With a passionate flourish Sing one final chorus Then drink up my love Yo-Ho!" 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

Saturday, October 15, 2005 11:14 PM - Today is a good day. My insomnia is leading me to live in a present time. Inspiration abounds and I fill up. Able to take in the power and beauty of my youth. Lucky for the friends I have. The life I love. The notes come with ease today. Beats sitting between beats like they're in their favorite chair. All around me are these talented people wordlessly encouraging me to succumb to my self. Impossibly in love with the possibility of positively living out this love, I love, for the rest of my life. So slough off slumber for a few more seconds that'll bleed into hours like the sanguine stuff of my veins. Faithful to this new found delirium. Pie-eyed, prepare for the stage. Overwhelmed with the overture in my frontal lobe I am overjoyed, my time here, far from over. On the other side of dreams, I wake with a smile.