soil from his fingertips

my next boyfriend
he's gonna be a man
gonna find me in those moments of disparity
and see a light coming out of my ass anyway
he'll understand
that the heart, sometimes, it weeps
that sometimes the world gets a little too heavy for one soul to keep
my next boyfriend will write songs
trapping words in melodies
rearrange letters forcing this lung to breathe
he's gonna find some truth in this tongue and water it
create some soil from his fingertips
my next boyfriend is gonna love life
and me in it
right beside him holding up his back bone
holding up his own
my next boyfriend is gonna know a thing or two about sweet nothings
holding the door open for his lady, build upon natural blessings
my next boyfriend is gonna hold me like the night holds a shadow
the sidewalk nurtures a crack
he's gonna kiss me like the bush belongs to the vine
fitting so perfectly like my favorite cardigan
and he'll know just the right thing to say when it gets hard again
when i'm finding it oh so hard to start again
my next boyfriend will know that his smile is where it all begins
my next boyfriend is gonna be my forever days
my ain't feeling so great days
my can't go on can you remind me where my knees are days
my next boyfriend will dance
groove with me, spit talking, booty shaking, melody rocking
let me get into your pants
but not disrespectful like
in fact
exactly the opposite
i respect you so much like
more than words like
so i gotta show you with my entire body like
my next boyfriend will be a poem
i'll swim around in his denim
he'll like things like coffee, and hikes
he'll love things like sitting in a room with unfamiliar faces
he'll ponder things like, where are we from, where are we going
he'll make me laugh outrageous
my next boyfriend will be brave
wear his heart on his lips
tattoo me on his hips
he'll love food and culture
hopes and dreams
maybe even be a baller
but he won't pay much attention to things you can buy
he'll just try
to be the best person he could be
see a little light from inside
my next boyfriend will love kids
our kids
he'll innately know the difference between being a father and a dad
my next boyfriend's mouth will melt away all the noise
he will bring me home
me and him on a throne
i be his queen and he my king
my next boyfriend will know the difference between
material things versus this life's strings
he'll have already lived a life
then find me
and he and i
well we will just be
my next boyfriend will be courageous
make me cry
just by his simple beauty
his ability to stand
and feel
and not be ashamed
to change
to evolve
to be real
my next boyfriend
will be free
and through his freedom choose me