don't kid yourself

i'm not that tough
keep reminding me of how strong i stand
how solid i am and i will falter
that's what you wanted me to say you fucking wish
it's never me down the alter
always me in that slutty garter
words in the gutter
my voice echoed in a sewer
pinch my thighs harder
put your hand between these knees and go fetch
dig deeper for my heart by way of my cunt
let's be blunt
you're only here to impress yourself
so bat bat went my lash
twinkle twinke went my eye
as you wrinkle my jeans
thrash about around my inseams
live out your dreams
i'll pet your narcissism just right
all fucking night and i'll have you bite by bite
cause this dress was for you
and the twinkle too, it's true
and the blush and my ass in these pants
and my little scratched words
but don't be mistaken
it never meant i wanted to get fucked by you
i was looking for something more than your dick
a little more than your sticky lips
was looking for you
at you
the whole time
but your stuck in your self importance
your disgusting need for a pat on the back
how smart you are
how handsome
how wonderful
how beautiful
bat bat goes my lash
how brilliant and fuck i'm so lucky to be here with you now

just cause we fucked
does not mean i was fucked by you

so tuck it back in sir
don't be so disappointed that i'm not staying
that i'm not buying into your shit
fun, right?
that's all i can afford for the mice
i'm on a budget
and you can't buy me
don't take loans
i earn my right to speak
big fancy cars don't get too far with me
i can pay for my part of dinner
i can pay for my own existence
you didn't give it to me
you can't take away what i already have asshole
i never needed you to make my life whole