putting on the seatbelt

its a true story, i really should be sleeping
got work in the morning, such the fortunate one
blessed with these mammoth friends
epic family
monumental love
such a lucky girl i am

been in the process, i know
of some major change
coming up on a year of liberation
i must have learned something

its gonna take that much more courage
that much up pep in this heart to survive this threshold
the honesty card is the wild card
and fuck, it hurts
it hurts the best
it loves the worst

living this life in the way that i choose to
in happiness, in light, in the full spectrum of the pendulum
what a taxing existence
at this point what do i do?

i am reminded of mount fuji
falling to my knees and weeping because i hadn't met my destination
in the time that we were instructed
start the hike at midnight, arrive at the top by sunrise
well that sun came a-creeping out to check out the sky's blue jeans
and i was no where near the top
i was so disheartened

but then i was told to turn around
through the night i had managed to walk above the clouds
more tears ensued, tears of great triumph
of awe
that these two little feet got that far

what was a girl to do?
pussy out and go back
or continue despite the lack of food and water
sleep and proper attire??
and so she kept trekking

i know that girl
we be cut from the same cloth
just gotta find her and let her know
she can do it
she is inspiration



don't be a mess, ar
don't you be a fucking mess
get up and scream at the moon
get up and grab november by the horns
get the fuck up and BE the reason to live
to really live
don't be an asshole
don't be a pussy
make it happen cap'ain

here's how it works
we have this one life
just this one
and any day
any given day it can all be gone
so count 'em up
all them blessings
drink the kool-aid of the free and heart beating
the dreamers who dream with their eyes open
the hopers that have retired hope because they are IT


november
i am your humble passenger
bring me home