unsung melody

because i can't seem to come up with a melody
i've opted to write

it's my ever steady friend
the one that is always there at my fingertips
sometimes i choose clenched fists
sometimes nail polish
but in the end
these words always win me over

these combination of letters
sorting them out to make sense
maybe it's easier than sorting life
micro managing strife

so for now
let me hide behind these letters
they eventually reveal me
they eventually heal me


you know i see things in that visual electric box
dancers
performers
singers
and i think
i could never do that
i could never be that


i don't know what it is with me
guess it's time to grow again arianna
guess it's time to fall
to rise
to sway from side to side
and feel the sun a little bit
drink the rain
soak the pain
wring it out
scream the shout
lose it all
lose myself in a snow ball
catch me when i fall
please

no


let me melt
i'll unravel myself
hit the gravel
dust myself off
and do it all again


so let it begin