shorehouse jazz session 4

marlow
lady basco

calloused from life
taking my coffee bite by bite
your words got me choking
on bended knees smoking
can't breathe--
was it you?
or the cigarette?
i don't live in regrets
calloused from strife
skin peeling
i'm reeling
skin unfolding in my nails like
the the ones in my coffin- or-
coughing from the smoke
and the mirrors
is it terror or fear
as the months turn to years
the years turn back to minutes
those mere seconds
ccatching wind and flying for hours
tangled in you
already singing our blues
blue like the cool dawn
that tears the sky- as i try
to tangle you up in my plans and stand up
as i stood up
put one foot up
and you look up
only to close your eyes
nice try----
i'm prying them open
put my thoughts in your oven
they're bakin
youy summer lovin
i've got you ducking
but you can't dodge the shine
you're not allowed to be blind
not on my time
and as the sun rises above us
it loves us
pours over us
adores us
as you blindly stair passed it
it's sunny
like honey, soak it
all in
like sin
like my skin
golden hairs-- shimmering like i'm
whinpering
it's simmering
burning my eyes
making me sigh
you are my high
you are my low
you are the why that makes me glow
so show yourself damn it
i bare it all for us
do your part and take it off
... even the socks
let's throw each other around and make some bad decisions
concentrate on these little incisions
we're carving on each other
making paper cut shapes only to unfold this beautiful accordian
of you and me fleeing
this space
making something out of nothing
stop tucking back those feelings
bring it
fuck it
fuck this poet!
go on and show it
show me what is underneath
not just your pants
not just your shirt
show me the pain
show me your hurt
show me the color that plays in your mind
then show me the way
you fuck from behind
tug on my hips
then pull out, use your lips
we've got a pair of them
so choose wisely
so many places to kiss
take me to bliss
sublimely
tenderly
selfishly
make me talk naughty to my pillow
dirty me clean while i wear stilletos
screaming falsetto
shush me- then hold me
bend me- then fold me
rehearse the words that i told you to tell me
then smell me
my mouth
my neck- my hair
just don't stop once i'm there
pause in me, show me where the wave crashes
hold tight- my gut caves- my inside thrashes
let's fight
wrestle in these sheets
i'll let you think you got me beat
i'll stumble my expressions
just so you get the right impression
i'll ramble my laughs
put my mark on your map
-- got this crazy cramp in my calf
fuck i'm so damp
... the air in here is moist
i think we made the right choice
are we pro choice?
does my pussy have a voice?
or is it just moist?
an invoice?
a notch on your belt?
the hand you've been dealt
an ace in the 'hole'
a jack for your king?
an unspoken thing?
for your face betrays
all the cards that were laid
i will call all your bluffs
i will cash in your chips
i will serve up a cocktail
while you suck on my tits
sing songs to my clit
you're the perfect fit
hit it again
paint my grin
i'm dancing on your taint
watching your minor faints
a cat licking me- like you're cleaning
what first had meaning-
now just moaning
growling and groaning
but just until morning-
when the same golden sun
is now a ball of fire
and now you're a liar
a sharer of sheets
a withdrawl- an incomplete
bearer of deceit
admittor of defeat
a trinket
a treat
no longer mysterious
a specter- i'm furious
it's ruined by desire- brimstone meets fire
and i'm tired
you took my number-
now i'm in no mood for slumber
because sleep will deceive you
to wake up still near you
no time to miss you-
our legs still sticky with decisions we made
as the boundaries fade
and the music we made
pours rain on the parade
the queen trumps the spade
the roll of the dice
the gamble of life
the cashout of lust
we put in together and the dealer's hand bust
we can't take it back
when it was laid it was played
and we paid
how we paid
the dreams of the could have
are shredded in should have
the plans that were inviting
are no longer exciting
that stuff we were fighting
made us us the right thing
now to spite me
it's time to rewrite me
once upon a time...
i spoke of you in rhyme
i dangled my braid down
a turrett you made
of prose so pure- of frelance fervor
brick upon brick- the denial so thick that
makes me cross my legs
lock up this heart
close this shop
collect all the cards
wash these sheets
and forget you in me