i fucking love this song

indiana asks why i'm still up
i suppose it is because...
yes because when you reserve a thought for everyone single person in your world
sleep does a good job of hiding
but also because
it just might be the only time i have for myself
alone
just me and all my dreams
spinning with my eyes open
witnessing darkness becoming light again
i love that part
i get to be all that i am right now
in these words
in these thoughts
don't have to pretend
make anything okay
accomodate anyone
anything

and no, i don't dump on people
i find when i do all that i feel is belittled
a little
a little death occurs with each dismissal
see cause when i listen i listen
i'm not waiting for you to finish so i can tell you about me
no me is reserved for now
these wee hours of morning
of night
where i can spit everything and nothing really
listen to this song over and over again
change it when i'm sick of it, not you
i'm not pleasing anyone but myself
the light is on
or off
this keyboard is all mine
the ink is my drink
the world is all perfect in imperfect pictures
this is when i get to rearrange the puzzle however i want it to be
you'd be amazed of the faces i think of
you'd be amazed to know it's you
it really is
i don't count sheep to sleep
i count blessings
every night
it's a tedious task
but one i frequent and enjoy thoroughly
it makes my day worth living
it makes this life worthy of each blessed day

it's me time
where i'm not apologizing for my truth
where i don't need to explain myself
justify my actions
just me
being me
the only time it truly feels right

where i live in a world of surround sound
and peace in the middle of internal wars
where i can take off these boxing gloves for a minute
and let my fingernails breathe and experience pretty
make a girl out of myself
lean into being comfortable in my own skin
fuck yeah
me time
arianna time
putting it out there
putting me out there
cause i think i'm that important
at least in these hours
just these hours reserved for yours truly