for the wealthy

by being with you i'm learning who i'm not
i'm remembering all that i am now
and learning to receive
i am not your project
and i am not your experiment
nor your investment
or housewife

i will not jump when you say jump
or write when you say write
i will not wash or cook when you decide you're hungry
i will no longer be hurt by you
demeaned by you
you may not take my wings
you may not pull my strings

i will receive love
i will only receive love
a wealth of love

note to self

when a man loves a woman
great song

for turlz

receive she says
receive


i woke up this morning with the thought
what can i receive today


it's funny, we get so caught up in giving
it's true
too true
give all i got, give all i got
and in all that give i had forgotten how to receive
to surrender
to be open


i say i forgot, because although i didn't know it then
nor use this particular word
at one point in my life i did receive


i was a beginner
innocent
i was a beginner who had already lived...
but i let that go and received




and then time
oh time that trusty friend
time came and happened and fought with me
and screamed at me and cried with me
and laughed at me
with me, sometimes
and sometimes hurt me
and sometimes loved me



so in response to this ever changing ever steady time
i put up walls
things went out
and nothing came in

i see this now
so clear
so poignant


so receive
yes arianna receive
and breathe
deep


the deeper the intake
the greater the give



so thank you for your give
your gift
your blessings
and your belief


a mobius i hope
a mobius dear friend

tennis

red palms makes a girl stand back
stand aside
subside
hold on tight to the racket
get your feet in the right position
let that sun beam down and burn all those doubts
let the shade bring down that body temperature
let the movement be the cure
listen not to those silent voices
all those lack of choices
and just play the game

glide through and follow through
you can do it
you can do it
serve the truth without speaking
serve for yourself within the perimeters
never expect a return
just run accordingly
be prepared
and drink water
lots of water



then feel your heartbeat
race
racing with your own life
set a new pace for yourself
a new game
a new hope



because the game will change
that is the only promise
win or lose
it will change